Life and the Pursuit of Purpose

As I sit here I think of all that has happened the past 24 hours or so
So much drama that came out of nowhere
Seeing people at their worse and hearing about people
doing stupid things and seeing it happen
I’m not one to cause drama or really want to see it
I think its a waste of time and things just always blow out of proportion
One person thinks they are right the other thinks they are. No one will back down so no one really wins. Only thing that will always happen is someone will get hurt and in the end noting is accomplished.
It all happened because two people were once in love and now…they aren’t
There is no such thing as a good break up. There is bad and there is horrible. No smooth break up or no way sides won’t be taken.
Guns will be pointed at each other seeing who is willing to pull the first trigger. Two people who once loved one another brought to this point. Promises broken and words said that can’t be taken back that have inflicted more damage than any fist could.
You lose more than you thought you could ever. Ignorance and Innocence lost

You say you truly love someone to me that means you love them and expect absolutely nothing from them not even to be loved in return. So when “love dies”…was it even really there in the first place. Did you really love them…or did you just care about them and by doing so hope that you can get something out of it in return. An eye for and eye if you will. Maybe I just have this impossible view of what love is, but to me if I say I love you I expect nothing from you or for you to say the same…yes it would be nice and welcomed to hear and see you feel the same but in the end I’m okay if you don’t because that doesn’t change anything with how I feel. I’ve told a few I love them I mean truly love them and to this day I still do and some of them I’m to afraid too. Even if I never see or hear them I still think of them and pray so hard they are okay.

To me True Love isn’t a word that has a limit or a set boundary its literally limitless. It also though has like so many different levels in of itself it’s hard to really understand. Its like this to me

1.True Love*
   a) In Love (that special someone)
   b) Love (bff friends/family)**
   c) Love (that point you care about someone more than normal but won’t really say it)
2.Care
   a) That place where you think you might love someone but are to afraid to admit it
   b) That place were people are separated from friends into best friends
3.Like
   a)Like(interested in)
   b)Like(you’re a cool person)
4.Indifferent (don’t like you don’t hate you)
5.Dislike (rather not deal with you but I can still be in the same room and deal with it)
6.Hate (don’t even look at me)
7.Loath (go die)

* True Love-can’t be touched or truly grasped by anyone except God and his love for us. We can only hope to imitate this
**I think this is the most common love but people are afraid to say because of fear of what the other person will think or say because it can be such a strong word. Yet it is also thrown around like its nothing.

Anyways I’m sure that was more than what was needed but oh well with the stuff that happened last night and valentines day coming up and my own stuff I’m dealing with  has just got me thinking about love to much. This is just my view on it at the moment.